I was warned that my first four treatments would be the hardest to get through and so far they were not kidding, it has been rough. With extreme fatigue, bone pain, nausea and even a swollen esophagus, the second treatment took longer for me to recover from. I have only had four short days that I have been feeling somewhat back to normal. As I sit here trying to prepare myself for my third treatment tomorrow I can honestly say that I am anxious about the next week or two of feeling all of the above all over again. But there is one thing I can say with assurance, GOD is my refuge, my strength, and as He has promised in his word "In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation." 1 Peter 5:10. My suffering may be overwhelming for me, and it may feel like it will never end but my HOPE is in the LORD, the GOD that created the HEAVENS and the EARTH, and I will CLING to his promise that HE WILL restore me, support me, and strengthen me.
I was told by my doctors and a few others that soon after my second treatment my hair would begin to fall out. I wanted to take advantage of how well I was feeling before I had my second treatment so I decided to buzz of my hair and make it as fun as we could for Mia and Mateo. A very sweet and generous friend of ours came over to do a before family photo shoot and also took a few pictures of the buzzing process. My wonderful hair stylist also came over to buzz my hair in the comfort of our own home. Mia even had the chance to help! It turned out to be a very fun night which made it a lot easier for the kids to see me with no hair. The moment Mateo saw me with my hair short he began calling me Mommy Boy the rest of the night. Here are a few pictures from that night. Also, a VERY special Thank You to Livy Bear Photography for the wonderful pictures and Andrea from Bilancio Salon in Elmhurst for the awesome buzz!
This past week I have felt incredible. I have had more energy in the last 7 days then I have had in months! I had to take advantage of my good days and what better way than to Wig shop. It was pretty fun trying on so many different styles, Mia even found a few she liked. I tried a wig that looked exactly like my normal hair cut, but after a little convincing I got the Kim Kardashian….Long dark with a blunt bang. Long enough to have my wonderful hair stylist cut and style it to our liking. It’s a custom order so as soon as it comes in I will post pictures!
Also, I start my second treatment of Chemo tomorrow morning and I am expecting to feel pretty exhausted and gloomy the next week or so. Please pray that I will bounce back and have energy like I did this week. I am not sure what to expect since my doctors have warned me that the more treatment the more fatigued I will feel. I am just praying that God would continue to get me through each day, may he give me the strength to get out of bed and eat and may I not have any severe pain or nausea.
I feel like my blog has become a weekly episode of Greys Anatomy, leaving everyone in suspense as to what’s going to happen next. Well, for those of you that are tuning in this week let me give you a recap. My treatment plan will consist of Chemotherapy every other Wednesday for 4 treatments and then switch to chemo weekly for 12 weeks. Once that is complete I will have to have a mastectomy. At this point we are not sure as to a single or double but we will know more as we get through Chemo. I had my first treatment last Tuesday, March 26, 2013. I was not scared or anxious and I actually felt Gods peace that surpasses all understanding. It was about 3 hours long and was pretty comfortable. I was told by the Oncology nurse that the first 4 treatments are the hardest to get through but then it should be smooth sailing after that. Wednesday thru Sunday I mainly felt extremely fatigued, which was to be expected of course. I spent most of my time sleeping and when I was awake I felt very sore and groggy. I also didn’t have much of an appetite. Since Sunday I have felt completely restored. My energy is back, my appetite is back and I have been able to enjoy my family. One thing for sure is MY GOD DOES NOT FAIL. He has been faithful in carrying me through this week, one day at a time. I praise HIM for these past few GOOD days. He has truly shown HIS strength in my weakness. I have added a video page to the website to share some clips that Tony will be taking along the way. I’m a bit camera shy so please pardon my poor acting skills. Please check out the video page to see a clip from my first treatment.
We would also like to thank everyone for supporting us in our time of need. We have felt an out pour of love and support from so many family and friends. From the beautiful cards we have received to the delicious meals you have made. Our family could not walk this road without so many of you walking beside us! We continue to pray for Gods strength for each of us as we all deal with not only the side effects of Chemo but also the daily duties of raising a family at the same time. I would like to thank the Lord for providing for us and blessing us with two wonderful mothers who have sacrificed so much to care for our children on a daily basis.